What I am mostly haunted by is a feeling that if this nation
keeps on the way it is going socially, morally, and politically America will
surely see her demise.
By Elizabeth Gonzalez
Sitting here at my computer staring at the blank page haunts me. Was there really a time when the words just flowed? Was there really a time when I was on fire and passionate for a failing political system despite what I saw? Yes, looking at this page I am haunted.
I do remember the days of a lack of writers block. Seems that all was in the past. Someplace in time lost between Freedom Watch and The HILL Chronicles, for those of you who may remember me. Today I have this huge writers block, but then I am writing this so perhaps it is more of a mental block. Today I just cannot wrap my mind around the last three years since I closed blog shop because (1) who our president was/is and I was extremely vexed; and (2) I had a plan to go back to school.
I did graduate as a Paralegal, though jobs are sparse, no they are non-existent. No jobs in Central Virginia, and I said I would never move to the south. Never say never, but you all know that already. No disrespect to the south or southerners, I love my country music, but you know what? When that southern hospitality was rolling around it just passed right over Virginia, oh yes it did!
I had my grandiose ideas of working as a Paralegal – in particular for the District Attorney’s Office. Okay now I am laughing. There are no jobs. I have done some sidebar work filling out legal papers for divorces or wills that basically people can take to the court and adjudicate Pro se. Beyond that I would like to ask Obama what jobs does he keep referring to, because even McDonalds and the “Queen of Welfare: Wal-Mart” are just not hiring, and that is truly bad.
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What I am mostly haunted by is a feeling that if this nation keeps on the way it is going socially, morally, and politically America will surely see her demise. Certainly I do not mean to be a pessimist. There supposedly is some hope to resurrect Sarah Palin to run for a senate seat according to Bill Kristol in 2014 (Poor, 2013). We also have the willowy Barbara Bush, daughter of our former president George Bush who sees Hillary Clinton as a sort of “whole package” to run for president (Wiersema, 2013). That later should not surprise me since Barbara is also for gay marriage, but that may be old news to most of you (Barbaro, 2011).
In looking back I do miss writing and the fire that once burned in me that is now just an ember. I am haunted by the lack of passion I now posses regarding politics and law. Perhaps I just became too jaded or too tired of singing to a choir that was so out of tune with reality that they voted for Obama, not once, but twice?
All the days I spent writing, the lost nights of sleep – I was like a rabid dog. Those days are long gone. I still love to write and I will write again when I decide that it is again for a true purpose. I really must have a purpose to write, we all do. This “purpose” is so integral to who I am and what I write.
Moving on now...
What was wrong with the Republicans so many people have said? They are dead others say and should become the Libertarian Party. No, I say they are all wrong.
I am haunted by the fact so many criticized and hated me for supporting Rudy Giuliani because he was less than a stellar role model. Says who now? Just look at Obama. Yet in every other way after September 11, 2001 Rudy Giuliani was by all standards America’s Mayor. What happened? If perhaps, now just thinking hypothetically, what if he had run against Obama instead of that sorry McCain? Just suppose Giuliani could have beat Obama if the Republicans could have had their act together.
Haunted by the fact that this president if that is what he is, you know the one that is a world traveler and on siesta all the time is not really 100% African American. Obama is also very Caucasian and yet African Americans believe they are liberated by this puppet and political system? Surely there was nothing wrong with Allen Keyes if people had been really thinking – and he is 100% African American. Now that would be liberating for us all. Instead, we have an “Oreo” sitting up in the White House – all black on the outside but white as hell on the inside!
I wrote the White House via their e-mail system four years ago. I wrote them and told them basically the a fore. My husband was sure they would track me down and jail me – they did nothing. I wish they had hunted me down so I could have really caused a “change” in this nation – a “change” Obama never made good on. Have you seen Obama’s new dog (so news worthy)?
I thought they rather look alike…
Yes, it is sad for me to look at these pages and feel as if I am aimlessly writing about things and people that I cannot affect, except what is on this printed page. I once believed that would be enough. It has haunted me that I really was so horribly wrong.
Barbaro, M. (2011, January 31). Bush’s Daughter, in a Break, Endorses Gay Marriage. Retrieved on August 21, 2013 from, http://www.nytimes.com/2011/02/01/us/politics/01bush.html?_r=0
Poor, J. (2013, August 19). Kristol: Palin could ‘rehabilitate herself’ with 2014 Senate win. Retrieved on August 21, 2013 from,
Wiersema, A. (2013, August 16). Barbara Bush Wants Hillary Clinton to Run for President. Retrieved on August 21, 2013 from, http://abcnews.go.com/blogs/politics/2013/08/barbara-bush-wants-hillary-clinton-to-run-for-president/